with 3 outstanding essays to do (courtesy of my procrastination and Ms. Ann's understanding cum faith in me), and a whole lot of confusion going around, I've no idea how to get through all this shit.
my school's principal and staff have had so much trust in me to make a valedictorian nominee and it really freaks me out. for some god knows what reason, my heart thumps really fast whenever I think about going up the stage (or LT 7 raised platform) next thursday to convince CIMPians (once again, I know) to vote for me to be valedictorian. I really want to be V, but then I don't think I deserve it, however going up the stage to speak to the CIMPians again is like a dream come true. Its like my second shot and getting what I really want. A second chance.
MODEL UN has been spectacular for me. Going to Singapore from Sep. 27-29 was like the best three days of this year, no freaking shit. It almost feels as if my whole life was a preparation for this conference at uwc. I met awesome, arrogant, kind, mean, selfish, selfless, shy, timid, cool, brave, smart, confused, misguided, cute, intellectual people there and it was literally an eye-opening event. Whoever started model un in the first place is a genius. achieving most charming delegate was a great shock to me too, considering how uwc was my first conference ever in my life. Damn.
And on top of all of that, well I'm pretty much in a crush with this awesome individual who I only have 1 photo with and its so precious that I don't really have the guts to share it to the outside world and only to the people that I know won't be like oh who's that Stanley and stuff.
With high hopes of graduating with no regrets after two weeks (school officially ends two fridays from now), I hope that I can get my stuff and work together in time without making the people who have so much faith, trust, love, admiration for me feel cheated. That much I want to do. and that much, I plan to do.
"Failing to plan is planning to fail"
Muuukyuu!
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